Friday, April 29, 2016

365 gratitude day 112

Today I'm grateful for the validation of the Spirit that I am enough.

After reading a blog post, that if read by an emotionally stable me, would have been inspiring (but I wasn't in the best of places, so it turned into an intimidating blog post) I hung my head and started feeling belittled, and not good enough. Then I very clearly felt the Spirit whisper to me "you are good enough. You are not [this blogger mom]. Heavenly Father sent your kid to you because they need you, not her. You are enough" which is just what I needed to hear.

Thursday, April 28, 2016

365 gratitude day 111

Today I'm grateful for inspiration. We made our decision about who to rent our home to for the summer. We ended up going with the second family that contacted us.
The first was a man and a woman who were co workers, not married, but not in a relationship... they were just going to be roommates. They both had an internship here and the days lined up perfectly with the dates that we were going th be gone.
The second was a family from Utah, who are coming here for grad school in the fall and want to find a home to buy, so they want a place to sub lease till they find a home.

As Jonathan and I prayed about it we felt like we should respect our home as a dedicated place, and if we have the option to have someone there who is going to keep it a place where the Spirit can dwell, then that's the best option.

I'm grateful for what the Spirit can teach us. I hadn't thought about that before we prayed about it.

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

365 gratitude day 110

Today I'm so grateful that we felt inspired to put an ad out on craigslist to sub lease our house.

Within 24 hours of the ad being up we had two really great potential people contact us. It feels so good to know that our we can help someone who really needs a housing option for the summer (also moving for a summer internship).

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

365 gratitude day 109 and thoughts from therapy

So I went to a therapist today. I'm grateful for the people who showed concern for me enough to say something.

The take home message? Sometimes untreated postpartum lasts a long time. I'm going to see my midwife on Thursday to talk about options for treating what I thought was PMS, but maybe it's postpartum depression.

There are types of energy that we are drawn to, just like there are types of food we are drawn to. So try to figure out what type of people put off that energy, and what types of social interactions have that energy do that I can fill up on the right tips of energy.

Journaling is more than just sitting down the good. Writing down the bad and the ugly can be therapeutic. Maybe start a journal that's not for posterity, what you can write real life down (the negative stuff, a place to get all the junk of your chest that you don't want to have preserved)... and when it's full, throw it away.

Write letters of encouragement to yourself on good days, then read them on bad days. You know what you need to hear better than anyone else, so write it down and let yourself hear it from the one who knows best how to say it.

Monday, April 25, 2016

365 gratitude day 108

Today I'm grateful for sunshine. It was a beautiful day and we spent a good amount of time outside. I'm grateful for prefect weather!

Sunday, April 24, 2016

365 gratitude day 105 106 & 107

105: today was my birthday and I'm overwhelmed by how many people did really nice things. Sadie bought me a CD we talked about on our trip, my visiting teacher brought by some chocolate, another friend invited me over for lunch (double bonus for her because she filled my need for social interaction, and made it so I didn't have to make my own lunch... I hate making lunch), Megan sent me flowers... I'm sure I'm forgetting something. That's not even mentioning the many texts, phone calls, and Facebook posts... I felt very loved!

AND....! Jonathan gave me a weekend getaway to Orlando, just me, to visit Megan! That was the best gift I've ever gotten! And let's not forget the amazing dinner he made for me, and then didn't let me clean up our put the kids to bed.

106: I'm still pinching myself, I really can't believe I get to go to Orlando all by myself!

I'm also really grateful that we got some good, solid cleaning done today.

107: I'm grateful for the special relationship we have with the missionaries (with Jonathan being the ward mission leader). We had both sets over for dinner, and it's just great to have such spiritual people over. They left our home a little brighter today.

Friday, April 22, 2016

365 gratitude day 103 & 104

103: Jonathan is so great! Today was another hard day, he came home to us huddled around my tablet watching something. That's my "I can't do this anymore" strategy. Surviving till daddy comes home... he just took the kids and played hard... that's what they needed.

104: I'm so grateful for answered prayers. During my morning prayers, I asked for the energy to get stuff done during quiet time. When quiet time rolled around, I was tired and wanted to take a power nap, but the words to my prayer came back to me and I started up and deep cleaned the oven and the dishwasher! It felt so good!

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

365 gratitude day 102

Today was a friend's birthday and she invited anyone and everyone to the park for a pot luck lunch to celebrate. I'm grateful for her example of how to be a friend.

She doesn't label people into categories of how close of a friend they are. It's so nice! I know I'm not her closest friend, but I don't feel that way when we are together. She makes everyone feel loved and included. I'm grateful for her.

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

365 gratitude day 101

I fail. I'm not even going to try to count how many days I missed. So I'm just going to start today as day 101.

I'm grateful for the beautiful weather. The kids and I went in a fairly long walk and it was great!

I'm also grateful for my primary president. She is nothing but sweet and understanding. She is great!

Monday, April 4, 2016

365 gratitude day 95, 96, 97... Today is Dao 100 or something

I'm so proud of myself for keeping with this thus far. I've been on vacation, and my routine is out the window so I don't know what day I'm on, but I do know that I'm really grateful.

I am so grateful for my family. I'm grateful that I can be here th help Amy recover from having a baby, I'm grateful that I can help mom with wedding prep, and that I can be at Holly's wedding. I'm grateful that my extended family is coming down, and that I get to catch up with them. I'm so grateful that the kids have been sleeping in, so that I'm not forced to be up at the crack of dawn. And I'm grateful that I don't feel overwhelmed with the total responsibility of my kids. Usually when I'm on vacation without Jonathan, this is breakdown time, but I still feel with it. I'm grateful for that.

365 gratitude day 94

Today I felt the most anxious I have ever felt in my whole life. I was doing my best to prepare for our trip but there were times that I just couldn't think. At the end of the day I was to the point where I was seriously wondering if driving out to Utah was a bad idea. I talked to Jonathan about it and asked him to pray. As soon as he started, I felt overwhelming peace. I'm so grateful that the power of the Spirit is always stronger than any other power out there.