Today I'm grateful for the realization that things that are with having won't come easy.
It was a bit lonely today; I went to a very busy park by myself with the kids and I felt like I was alone in a crowded place. After that I just felt like because of these few days by myself, I'm going to cherish the friendships I do make here.
It is also forcing me to be a real adult and take this summer by the horns and make something fun out of these 12 weeks.
137: I'm grateful that I followed the prompting to introduce myself to the family upstairs. I heard little footsteps running around, and it made me feel so much better about living here.
138: I'm grateful that the same family (Samatha, Honest, and Sage) went to the park with us. It feels so good to know someone else needs a friend just as much as I do.
139: I'm grateful that I am starting to understand my limits, and sometimes I can do preventive things to help with my mood. I'm also really grateful that I found a voice teacher!!!! I can't wait to start!
What a whirlwind these last few weeks have been!
After I got home from Florida, we had three days to pack and clean and be off to Madison to visit James and Sadie for a few days then move to Minneapolis! We are here now and in our new place.
There's so much to be grateful for. I'm grateful that General mills took care of housing out here. That took a huge load off our shoulders. I'm grateful for how much Jonathan just powers through and gets stuff done. I'm grateful that we have renters in our house over the summer. I'm grateful that all the crazy things that happened, happened before we left (internet stopped working, minor van fix, electrical problems with the house, plumbing issues). I would feel really bad if all that happened when our renters moved in.
I'm grateful for the beautiful weather that we drove through. I'm grateful that there was a BYU alum General mills barbeque the day we moved in, so we didn't have to stress about dinner.
Wow, I'm falling behind again. But what matters is that I'm catching up now.
I've been in Florida Friday, Saturday Sunday and I came home today. They're are so many things I'm grateful for in regards to that:
I'm grateful that I made such a deep friendship with someone that I have a desire to make a trip out to see them. I'm grateful that I found good deals on activities, I'm grateful that the Lord answered my prayers (even though it wasn't a big deal at all) and sent some dolphins into the bay when we were paddle boarding. I'm grateful for Jonathan willingness to do extra plasma to pay for the trip, I'm grateful that he was willing to take care of the kids so I could have a much needed break. I'm grateful that Dave took care of their kids so Megan could spend so much time with me. ... I could go on...
I'm also grateful that Jonathan works so hard all the time. He did a lot to get the house ready for us to move in a few days.
Today I'm grateful for how sustained I was. Corbin literally didn't stop crying or whining for 4 hours (with maybe an hour long nap in between). Usually I would be a big ball of stress, but I just took everything in stride and let the stress roll off my shoulder.
I know that I received some extra help, and I'm grateful for that.
Today I'm grateful for the great day it has been emotionally. I was able to do all that I wanted to (within reason) and I was able to take care of stressful situations without being stressed.
I can't help but feel like this is who I really am, not this emotional rollercoaster of a woman... I hope to get my emotions within a normal range soon.
